i was told yesterday, “why don’t you take pictures anymore? you’re pretty good for an amateur”. at the time i couldn’t think of anything to say so i made some BS answer up saying “ehhh I’m just too busy nowadays.” the TRUTH is, i lost my muse. she (yes, she) was the driving force to my creativity and energy, i can’t really say how or why because i honestly don’t know… but it was her. after ‘shit hit the fan’, i couldn’t pick up my cameras without the slightest thought of her and i hate it. its kind of like eating a really hot plate of food, looks HELLA GOOD and you want it now but as soon as you try some it burns you and you learn your lesson to wait a little bit before you try it again. thats pretty much how i feel. as soon as i get to korea and have my stuff delivered to me, i want to get back into the game. i know i kinda told everyone HADJEEP HOTO would be back earlier this year.. sorry. LOL. i really was busy this whole year and some things happened that i didn’t expect to happen. i love photography but i don’t want it to be business anytime in the near future, i plan to keep it as a hobby for a LONG time. i want to take my own pictures of my little future family. i want all the framed pictures of buildings and bridges and other stuff hanging on the walls of my house to be pictures taken by me, ya know?
damn, i should’ve said something like that yesterday haha